First road trip

Kendall, Nana and I are planning our first road trip this week. We are packing and headed up to see my sister, brother-in law and nephew in Pennsylvania. Keep us in your thoughts that we make it there safely! I'm so excited to see how she does. I'm going to sleep over at Mom's tomorrow and we head out on Wednesday morning. Should be a lot of fun!

Kendall is growing a mile a minute. She's talking to herself/stuffed animals/us all the time...just cooing, ahhing and everything. It's the cutest thing ever. Today Matthew was having fun with her, he would sit her up and she would look around and at the TV...when he would relax her on his chest she would get all fussy and demand to be back in sitting-up position! It was great!! I love that little girl more than anything :) <3

God works in mysterious ways

Kendall:

I was so bummed today because it was the first day back for students. As a teacher, my heart was very conflicted because I wasn't standing in front of a classroom full of students who would have been just as anxious as I was! I already knew what my plan would be for the day and everything. I've been bummed about not having a teaching just for awhile.

Then, as I was grumbling up the stairs, since I didn't want to get out of bed today...I opened up your door, turned off the closet like just as I do every morning, and went around the corner saying, "Good morning Kendall...how's my pretty girl today?" And you looked up at me as I came into view and started smiling at me. My heart melted, and I knew that I wasn't meant to be in front of that classroom today, I was meant to hold you in my arms all day long and snuggle, which is exactly what I did!!

You are the best thing that has ever happened in my life, and I am so thankful that you chose me to be your mommy. I hope that I don't disappoint you too much as you grow up. I had a wonderful mommy who taught me well, and I hope to do the same for you.

I watch you grow everyday and I am amazed that I was able to create you (of course with the help of your daddy and God!!!). You are so perfect in every way that I almost cry every time I see you! I am very proud of you, and I always will be!!!!

I love you Kendall Paige :)

LOL

LOL...laugh out loud, that's what Kendall did the other day after her bath! Matthew was so excited to hear her do it. He said he asked her to do it again and she apparently said, "K!" so now he thinks she is going to spell her name! LOL....from me, of course.
I'm still hunting to get a job, but haven't found anything yet. I have even considered babysitting on the side just for a little bit to help out. I mean, i LOVE staying home with Kendall, but I am getting SO lazy...I will stay in my pjs all day long and watch TV, when I really should be cleaning around the house or playing with Kendall. Not that I am ignoring her at all, but sometimes she spends more time sleeping in her crib than playing with me. I haven't read to her in two days, ugh...I feel like a bad mommy sometimes. My mom said that it's normal to feel that way, but dang, I feel bad!!! Alright, I guess I need to go cook some dinner! <3 M

3 months tomorrow

We are going to take Kendall for her 3 month pictures tomorrow. She is going to wear this CUTE ladybug dress...we did a theme of ladybugs and now most of her clothes have the bugs on them! It's too cute! It even has little sparklies on it, and it's pink, green and navy blue. She is going to look gorgeous!
We tried out her Bumbo today. She was a little lopsided, but I think she enjoyed it for the most part. She is holding her head up more and more, especially when I lay her on the Boppy we have upstairs. I exchanged her 0-3 month clothes for 3-6 month clothes. And to think, I thought she would be petite and not fit into her 3-6 for a long time...phew, she proved me wrong! Not much else is new...still no job, except the best one ever: Mommy!
Alright, bedtime so we can wake up and be at the studio on time :)

So scared of SIDS

I am terrified of SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome). Every time Kendall sleeps past 10 A.M., I get so worried. I walk through her door with an urgency to make sure she is okay. Everyday she is laying there, usually sucking on her thumb and smiling up at me.
I don't know how people who have lost a child handle it. I can't imagine! They are the strongest people I know, and I do know a few of them. And most of them have the strongest faith I have ever seen, which makes me want to be a better Christian so I can have that same faith!
I have been trying to learn as much as I can about my faith and it seems to get better everyday. I picked up a childrens bible for Kendall and we read through that together. If anything, I want to have a good influence on her life and have her grow up in a Christian home. My parents brought me up right, even though we didn't go to church, I had a strong moral upbringing. For that I am thankful and I want nothing but the best for my little girl. I never thought I could love something so much as her!!!!!
Alright, that wasn't much of a blog, start off sad and end sappy!! Haha...

1 week until we are 3 months old!

Time is just FLYING by! I cannot believe Kendall will be three months old next week! Matthew and I were talking today and we are just amazed at how fast she is growing. We can't wait for her to be able to walk and talk but I know we will miss these cuddly times now! Everyone keeps asking when we will have another baby, but I think we are going to wait for a few years. I don't even know if I want to go through it...Kendall was the best pregnancy, labor and baby *so far* and I just KNOW that the next one will be the exact opposite. Will I be able to handle all of that?? I don't know. I just have to have faith that what is meant to be will be!
Kendall is holding her head up a lot better now. I have been putting her on a Boppy on her tummy and she will just look around and back at me and Matthew. It's great watching her grow up!!!

Thumb

Kendall has found her thumb! She prefers it to a paci now. It is SO cute watching her sleep with it in her mouth.
Everyday I fall more and more in love with her. She is the most precious gift God could have ever sent me. Today I got a kick out of her and Erin sticking their tongues out at each other. It was hilarious!!! Every time she would do it, I would just be filled with more love and pride for her. My faith in God becomes stronger everyday Kendall is in my life. She is my firm affirmation that I needed. She is my angel that was sent specifically for me to help me in my lost life.
I can't believe that in just 10 days she will be 3 months old. Where does the time fly by to??? I wish it would slow down a bit.
It looks like I may be staying at home with her during this school year. I thought it wouldn't be a good thing at first, but it seems like it may be what is supposed to happen! God works in mysterious ways! She will have lots of books read to her if I stay at home! And I am determined to have her picking her head up soon, then crawling! YIKES!!!! Well, good night blogging world. <3 src="file:///C:/DOCUME%7E1/Defualt/LOCALS%7E1/Temp/moz-screenshot-1.png" alt="">

Webcam

Matthew let me get a new computer today. It has a webcam so Kendall and I can talk with Sara and cousin Robert in Pennsylvania. I don't really think Kendall cared much when we set it up. She just kicked and cried, lol. I'm sure one of these days she will enjoy it! (of course, by then they will have new and better creations for talking to long-distance relatives!)
We had a good day today. We went shopping with Erin. I bought a bunch more books, a toy and a dress at a consignment sale in Randleman. They have a half-off sale next week, so Nana and I might check it out! I'm not big into buying clothes unless they are really cheap, especially as fast as she is growing. It's almost time to pull out the 3-6 month clothes, because she is so long that the onesies are getting stretched. She can still wear newborn sizes if they are a two piece. She wore a newborn size today, it was cute!

August is here!

Wow, Kendall will be 3 months here soon! I really can't believe how fast time is flying with her. She is such a sweet baby! Yes, she can get fussy some days, but don't we all?? We have gotten her into a routine, mostly.
I am hoping that soon I will get another laptop and start spending the days upstairs with her. We have everything up there, books, recliner, crib, TV, scrapbooking area, tummy mat, toys, etc... I think she'll love being up there during the day too.
Not much has really happened in the past few weeks with her. She's smiling a lot now, and my mom says she is starting to giggle. I haven't heard that yet, but I can't wait. Her smile makes my entire day! I think she likes the books, Clifford. When I read them to her, she seems to be listening really well. Or maybe it's just my voice...it doesn't matter!
I don't know if I'll be starting work this year or not, because no schools have been really hiring. I may get to stay home with Kendall a little longer! That would be really great, so I can work with her on reading and developing in all the areas. I know that I need to just remember that if it's meant to be, it will happen. It's just been hard to be comfortable with that conclusion...
Alright, time to get Kendall dressed up and we are going out to lunch with Erin :)